I'm very sorry that you lost your partner Leila. With that loss some love is missing from your life. Having someone to support you is huge. I hope you have family who is there for you.

You must have been a tremendous support for her. I hope there was someone you could call on for support during that difficult time. She was a very vulnerable person and my heart goes out to you Leila. I'm so sorry she's no longer in your life.

I need to find a new place to live 1st I hate where I'm living tbh, we only moved here after hurricane Irma hit florida back in 2017, and we had planned to eventually move back but my partner found out she had stage 3 metastatic cancer(she also had a rare immune disease all her life called CVID(her body didnt make B-cells) so when she got cancer well... 😢😔💔she fought for 3yrs, and unfortunately she could not beat it, but I guess luckily she passed just before the pandemic hit.

Families do have their challenges...
Most of my friends also live in other states as well.
You neeed to continue making connections. Don't cut yourself off from new relationships. You'll know when the time comes to reach out again...

I don't have anyone now Marilee, my son lives in Utah, and all my friends live in other states, my family (whats left of them I can only handle is very small doses)