I do sometimes because, I was dropped by a nurse, but, then again, I always wonder how she felt!? She must have got the shock, or fright of her life, to drop a 1 year old baby and she must have felt awful! I would've if I dropped a baby. I don't think I'd be doing that job anymore! Thing is though, my parents didn't realize I was having seizures until a year later - when I was 2yo, when someone else noticed and pointed it out to my mother.
I also forgive the nurse, she didn't hold me up, deliberately drop me and watch me go "splat." But when it came to our kids, and now our grandchildren, I always held them by a leg and sat down when I held them.

Cheryl - it is ok to feel how you feel! You acquired your epilepsy in a completely different manner than the rest of our team.
Give yourself some Grace about those feelings. I’m so sorry those things happened to you. That had to be very scary and difficult.
Remember God has you in his heart everyday. Take Care

Thanks for all your replies. I was very depressed and I am praying about it. Maybe not the right way. I will keep trying.

I blame the accident for my seizures but I was still inside my mom’s womb when I inhaled the Meconium (poo) so there’s no person to blame.

I still have trauma sometimes when seeing a car crash or getting to close to vehicles. I’ll never miss driving. But if my accident never happened I wouldn’t have met my husband and had a great daughter 🌞